two.

i have two black dresses hanging on my door. one for prom, the other for graduation. it's odd, really, understanding that once these dresses have been worn, high school is finished forever.

life is constantly changing. i never expected one year, even two months, ago that i would be standing at the point i am now. the vision of my future is nothing like it was in december, or january, february, march. each change has brought me a greater happiness, deeper joy, and i'm completely content with the way my future is coming towards me now. i have always been slightly frightened by the chance that my thoroughly planned future would fall through, but now, sitting on my bed, my two dresses fluttering in the wind of the fan, i am so thankful this is where i have landed.

i've grown with change. i've lived through the change. change is the reason i have skydiving plans on july fourteenth, it's the reason i have glittery shoes sitting in the corner of my room. change is the reason why i read my scriptures more, why i feel the incandescent happiness that seems to light the room. change is the reason i film more, it's the reason i'm living more.  change brought me that text message, the a-team by ed sheeran, a towel that, no matter how many washes, will always smell like sulfur. change, without a doubt, is what has made me a better person. change has brought me complete joy.

don't be afraid of change, and never, never shortchange yourself. you deserve better than you're letting yourself settle for, i promise.

two black dresses until i close this chapter of life.