excuse the slight back porn.

the bubble is off and it's like swimming in heaven.  coach chooses this time to throw the most difficult of sets at us, but it's so lovely outside, we don't mind. we laugh and smile when we should be crying purely because we're soaking up the vitamin d as well. 

ah, summer season.  thank you dearly for finally arriving.

a utah man am i.

the press release for the utah swim and dive class of twenty-sixteen was finally released! i'm so excited for all of the wonderful opportunities coming my way and all the wonderful people i get to work with for these next four years as a lady ute! go utes!

to check out the press release... go here.

the best job.

i don't know what i would do without her.
love you mom.

two.

i have two black dresses hanging on my door. one for prom, the other for graduation. it's odd, really, understanding that once these dresses have been worn, high school is finished forever.

life is constantly changing. i never expected one year, even two months, ago that i would be standing at the point i am now. the vision of my future is nothing like it was in december, or january, february, march. each change has brought me a greater happiness, deeper joy, and i'm completely content with the way my future is coming towards me now. i have always been slightly frightened by the chance that my thoroughly planned future would fall through, but now, sitting on my bed, my two dresses fluttering in the wind of the fan, i am so thankful this is where i have landed.

i've grown with change. i've lived through the change. change is the reason i have skydiving plans on july fourteenth, it's the reason i have glittery shoes sitting in the corner of my room. change is the reason why i read my scriptures more, why i feel the incandescent happiness that seems to light the room. change is the reason i film more, it's the reason i'm living more.  change brought me that text message, the a-team by ed sheeran, a towel that, no matter how many washes, will always smell like sulfur. change, without a doubt, is what has made me a better person. change has brought me complete joy.

don't be afraid of change, and never, never shortchange yourself. you deserve better than you're letting yourself settle for, i promise.

two black dresses until i close this chapter of life.

addict.

i'm a little bit addicted to this song.
enjoy.

take me to your best friend's house, marmalade we're making out, oh yeah.

i like to pretend i can focus while listening to music, but i'm going to break down and be honest with myself. i can't. it's that simple. i start off really well typing what i'm supposed to be typing, when suddenly my fingers begin dancing upon the keys, spelling out the lyrics or i drift off into a stare-at-the-wall type daze for long lapses of time. it's sad, i know, but i'm already over it.

if you're wondering, the best song to lose focus to is tongue tied by grouplove. i gave away my secret, don't make it famous.

subliminal.

sometimes letters to crushes says it best.

" lust is fleeting. it is "in the moment." it is summer nights and endless roads. lust is lipstick and pop music. it is hearts drawn in a notebook, a different name inside every week. it is getting a phone number. lust is messed up hair and sandy feet. it is condom wrappers and drunk-dialing. it is regret, regret, regret. love, on the other hand, is the possibility of forever. it is running errands on a week day just to see each other for an hour. it is holding hands under the table. love is a white dress and candlelight. it is a wish at 11:11, the same one every single night. it is stargazing on a blanket. love is beautiful and poetic and terribly tragic all at the same time. it is new or old, planned out or accidental, hidden or proclaimed to the world. it is not to be confused with lust. love and lust can be linked. love needs a little passion to keep it going, and lust can be the start of something real. but even with all of the intertwined emotions, i know how i feel when i stand in front of you."